Alone With My Thoughts

by Distract Me

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released July 5, 2012

Written, Recorded, Mixed, and Mastered by Andy Cizek.

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Distract Me Frederick, Maryland

Music by Andrew Scott Cizek.

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Track Name: In Closing
I won't let this go
Your voice, it haunts me
I can't find the reasons why
I should stay, my darling

Will you let me go?

If I'm not alive, when you leave
The world will not come down
If I take it all down with me
Will you even hear the sound?

To hurt my family
To hear them cry, it kills me
Just to see your eyes
To prove you're there, will you be?

If I'm not alive, when you leave
The world will not come down
If I take it all down with me
Will you even hear the sound?

I can't help but feel, the relief
Of ending all this now
So how does it feel to finally
See us die?

I have been holding onto memories of you to stay afloat
So now I'm writing you into the longest part of my last note
I hope this message won't fall on deaf ears like everything I wrote
All of those little things have gone away but I still love you

Do you remember all our inside jokes and stupid cliches?
I can't forget about all of the time we wasted in my room
The fact that someone else is holding you makes me fade away
Oh God, if you're up there, what have I done? Will I see you soon?
Track Name: Chemicals
We're all still searching for what makes us feel alive

Fading away with all of the good in me, I turn my face to the skies
A generation of lust and impurity makes me start to wonder why
Alone with my thoughts, oh how they're hurting me. I no longer feel alive
I waste away with no shred of dignity; another typical night

The chemicals inside are tearing me apart
And nothing you can say or do, will save me from my heart
I know that thinking through won't take me very far
My mind's an open wound, it kills me from the start

Give me the chance and I'll let you down again, I'm broken in that sense
Never forget the looks from the faces of people I cared about then
Pent up with memories of my abandonment, I never could make amends
I'll beg for closure, give me some reasoning. In the end it wasn't meant
But I can't forget

The chemicals inside are tearing me apart
And nothing you can say or do, will save me from my heart
I know that thinking through won't take me very far
My mind's an open wound, it kills me from the start

We're all still searching for what makes us feel alive
And with our final breaths we look back on our lives
Track Name: We All Hide
Sleep away the aches of one more day
I know that tomorrow things could change
Wake from my dreams of company
Cause I'm still so filled with doubt
And I tell myself

Don't
Let it show, let it show
No, don't
Let it show, let it show

Run far away from all the pain
A new life, watch all my fears go down the drain
Live, and meet new friends along the way
But they know I tell myself every day

Just don't
Let it show, let it show
No, don't
Let it show, let it show

Cause we all face these problems each day
I just can't be the only one to see the world this way
So don't
Let it show, let it show

Now it seems that somewhere I have lost my place
Scared of living with the fear of death
Staring down at all of the worries I face
Where will I go when there's nothing left?

I wish could take down all my lonely thoughts
Box them up and leave them on the shelf
Pretend to be everything I'm not
But in the end it's just me by myself